I know I said I would keep up to date with this, but life comes at you fast. My blog is not for people looking for Bon Jovi news or anything like that; they are just my personal interests and fun for me. My blog is about what's going on inside my head and sometimes I don't like to share it.
The last few weeks have been exceptionally hard for me to "deal with"... who am I kidding the last few months have been exceptionally hard for me to deal with. I have had 2 sick parents, summer vacation with 5 children at home and I really can't call them children any longer because 3 of them are now in their 20's, my marriage hitting a rough patch again and my struggles with my own self on my plate. Yes, I know things can be changed or made better and every line someone can come up with, but the truth of the matter is I just dont' have the energy for it anymore. I feel like I have run a freakin' marathon and don't have anymore left to give...
Write more tomorrow I guess... loss my zest for this...cause I sound like I'm whining...
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
This Ain't A Love Song
Just the mood I am in tonight...These lyrics speak volumes for me...
I should have seen it coming when roses died
Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes
I should have listened when you said good night
You really meant good bye
Baby, ain't it funny, how you never ever learn to fall
You're really on your knees, when you think you're standing tall
But only fools are know-it-alls and I played that fool for you
I cried and I cried
There were nights that died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time
Like we got away with the perfect crime but
We were just a legend in my mind
I guess that I was blind
Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade
The clowns wore smiles that wouldn't fade
You and I were the renegades, some things never change
It made me so mad cause I wanted it bad for us baby
Now its so sad that whatever we had, ain't worth saving
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river Ive cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yes I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong
Is the reason that I'm holding on
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
I cried and I cried
There were nights that I died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't no love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong
Is the reason that I'm holding on
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
If the pain that Im feeling so strong
Is the reason that Im holding on
Then Im wrong, yeah Im wrong - this aint a love song
Yes, Im wrong, yeah, Im wrong - this aint a love song
Yes, Im wrong, yeah, Im wrong - this aint a love song
Yes, Im wrong, yeah, Im wrong - this aint a love song
I should have seen it coming when roses died
Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes
I should have listened when you said good night
You really meant good bye
Baby, ain't it funny, how you never ever learn to fall
You're really on your knees, when you think you're standing tall
But only fools are know-it-alls and I played that fool for you
I cried and I cried
There were nights that died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy, baby
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
Baby, I thought you and me would stand the test of time
Like we got away with the perfect crime but
We were just a legend in my mind
I guess that I was blind
Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade
The clowns wore smiles that wouldn't fade
You and I were the renegades, some things never change
It made me so mad cause I wanted it bad for us baby
Now its so sad that whatever we had, ain't worth saving
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river Ive cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yes I'm wrong, this ain't a love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong
Is the reason that I'm holding on
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
I cried and I cried
There were nights that I died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny that your love drove me crazy
If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't no love song
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong
Is the reason that I'm holding on
Then I'm wrong, yeah I'm wrong - this ain't a love song
If the pain that Im feeling so strong
Is the reason that Im holding on
Then Im wrong, yeah Im wrong - this aint a love song
Yes, Im wrong, yeah, Im wrong - this aint a love song
Yes, Im wrong, yeah, Im wrong - this aint a love song
Yes, Im wrong, yeah, Im wrong - this aint a love song
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
Monday, September 07, 2009
The Forgotten Blog Finds Its Master
Wow... when they say the first thing to go is your mind they were not kidding!!! I had forgotten this little space of the internet belonged to me and my last post was like 2005!!! 2005? Like 4 years ago people!!! Well I have successfully pulled my head out of my ass and here I am.
I am 4 years older and hopefully 4 years wiser and still very much me!!! My addition has been complete for quite some time now and we had another wonderful summer swimming in the pool. Jessica and Jacob are now 12 and 10 in that order and I am still married. I still work as a cook and am going into my 5th year at doing it. My job is fun; I get to see the kids when they are at their best and they love me. This year's work schedule will be different though; I have to actually behave myself, hahahahahaha; yeah right.
Here's a updated version of one I posted originally years back
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? Still my jeans
FAVORITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? Still the eyes (the window to the soul)
WHAT'S THE LAST MOVIE THAT YOU SAW AT THE THEATER? Transformers; Revenge of the Fallen.
WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? Lost in my fiction I write
WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? reality
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? Still my feet
WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? Still strong in mind.
WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? This year will be 6am
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? dishwasher
WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? people who make me hurry to wait
IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT WHAT WOULD IT BE? Still the guitar of course
FAVORITE COLORS? Purple and Black
WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR, OR SUV? I want a Mustang or a Vette... so sportscar
DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? Yes; ABSOLUTELY!!!
FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? Still Goodnight Moon
WHAT'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE? Still cleaning the toilet (I don't pee on it, I pee in it, why do I have to clean it?)
IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE? And yes I still want to read minds
IF YOU COULD HAVE 1/2 HOUR TALKING TO A FAMOUS PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE? Richie Sambora
NAME THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK WITH? Forever be my Sister ( I was 4 months old when she died)
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY? Monday (kids go back to school)
WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR? No trunk, but I have a comforter that needs washed, grocery bags and a container with important car maintenance things
SUShI OR HAMBURGER? Cheeseburger
IF YOU COULD PICK WHAT YOU DO FOR A LIVING, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? Write fiction and get paid to do it; Richie Sambora's masseuse.
IF YOU HAD 3 WISHES, WHAT WOULD THEY BE? That my family would be healthy; never have to worry about money and happy knowing their faith will get them through whatever life throws at them.
I am 4 years older and hopefully 4 years wiser and still very much me!!! My addition has been complete for quite some time now and we had another wonderful summer swimming in the pool. Jessica and Jacob are now 12 and 10 in that order and I am still married. I still work as a cook and am going into my 5th year at doing it. My job is fun; I get to see the kids when they are at their best and they love me. This year's work schedule will be different though; I have to actually behave myself, hahahahahaha; yeah right.
Here's a updated version of one I posted originally years back
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING? Still my jeans
FAVORITE PHYSICAL FEATURE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? Still the eyes (the window to the soul)
WHAT'S THE LAST MOVIE THAT YOU SAW AT THE THEATER? Transformers; Revenge of the Fallen.
WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? Lost in my fiction I write
WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE? reality
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED? Still my feet
WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG IN BODY? Still strong in mind.
WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? This year will be 6am
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE? dishwasher
WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY? people who make me hurry to wait
IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT WHAT WOULD IT BE? Still the guitar of course
FAVORITE COLORS? Purple and Black
WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR, OR SUV? I want a Mustang or a Vette... so sportscar
DO YOU BELIEVE IN AFTERLIFE? Yes; ABSOLUTELY!!!
FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK? Still Goodnight Moon
WHAT'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE? Still cleaning the toilet (I don't pee on it, I pee in it, why do I have to clean it?)
IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE? And yes I still want to read minds
IF YOU COULD HAVE 1/2 HOUR TALKING TO A FAMOUS PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE? Richie Sambora
NAME THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK WITH? Forever be my Sister ( I was 4 months old when she died)
WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY? Monday (kids go back to school)
WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR? No trunk, but I have a comforter that needs washed, grocery bags and a container with important car maintenance things
SUShI OR HAMBURGER? Cheeseburger
IF YOU COULD PICK WHAT YOU DO FOR A LIVING, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? Write fiction and get paid to do it; Richie Sambora's masseuse.
IF YOU HAD 3 WISHES, WHAT WOULD THEY BE? That my family would be healthy; never have to worry about money and happy knowing their faith will get them through whatever life throws at them.
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