Random thoughts of ???

So how does one recover from a major fight with your daughter? It's not an easy process I guess. I'm just... I don't know ... feeling very lost and alone... How do you escape yourself without dying? I have a million and one scenarios playing out in my head... Reasons... Pros and cons... Depression is an awful thing... Paralyzingly awful... My mothers health is failing... Seeing a lung specialist next month with her to find out if the 3 masses that were found should be biopsied. The C word lingers in my head and not just any C word... Lung cancer C word. I'm not ready to lose my mom... It'll be 5 years in March since losing my dad... Still haven't recovered from that... Just want to sleep for a week... Stay in bed for 7 days and do NOTHING but sleep... I'm so exhausted! My mind won't shut off... Somebody save me... Lord are you out there? Scattered... Losing faith... Broken!