Okay, so i was lazy...that doesn't mean

I didn't record all my food intake!!!  Guess what?  I lost 4 pounds in the first week!!!  Gonna shout that shit out to the rooftops!!!

Today starts week 2 of my 11.5 weight loss goal by March 1st... 4 pounds down, 7.5 to go... I really gotta start exercising this week!!!


I will be determined and I will succeed this time!!!

Day Two of this Blasted Journey...

Okay so I have to admit day two was a helluva lot better than day one!  Of course I don't want to toot my horn to loudly just yet because I still have about 3 more hours left in my day that I could still fuck up.  Never know if that cookie jar will reach out and grab my hand, forcing it inside to grab a handful of chocolatey delight and then smack my open mouth with its contents while I mumble num, num, num...

So I give you my day today... I had coffee and a clementine for breakfast reaching 1 point! 
"Breakfast" burrito for lunch which consisted of some spicy potatoes, onion, green peppers, spinach, fake eggs for just enough hint of color and some low fat cheese...it was filling, but above all it tasted GOOD!  Oh and it was 10 points! 
Snack was another clementine and some sugar free orange drink substance... 0 points
coffee... 1 point
Dinner... well dinner was fabulous if I do say... I had a homemade cheesesteak hoagie... I made sure it was NO FAT because I boiled my lean meat with onion and garlic powder, added some cheese, lettuce, tomatoes, onions and oregano... no salt, no pepper, no oil... just wholesome goodness...oh and it was 18 points... top it off with another round of coffee that's another point and I was a very good girl today... I still have a couple points left for a snack later if I choose to have one... I don't know... I'm kinda still full from dinner... wait... what...did I say I was full?  I believe I did... so with that... I'm gonna take my smirky faced self into the ole living room and perhaps watch some TV... until tomorrow...

Denial is not just a river...

Well I've finally decided that today will be my day of reckoning... I have officially gone on a diet and I'm making it public (well as public as I can with 1 follower of this blog, lol)... I'm giving this whole WW thing another try and this time I have promised myself that I am going to be honest with myself... boy that's a lot of "myselfs" to type).  No More new year resolutions that I am not going to keep... this time I am going to force myself to write down every little thing that crosses my lips and then I am going to let myself know just how good or bad that choice was.  I'm allowed 33 "points" a day and then there's that additional 49 that I can choose to use whenever during the week... but alas, no roll over points this time around kiddies... no, I use them or lose them... like I really have to worry about not using them...HA!!!  This is a tried and true fat girl here; I'm going to use them and you would think that today... Day 1 I would have been a little more conservative... well I wasn't!  My emotions got the better of me today and let's just say 15 of those "extra" 49 points are GONE!  You don't have to berate me for it... I've already done that...

For breakfast I had Honey Nut Cheerios and 1/2 c. skim milk... not a huge bowl either... it was pre-packaged and only consisted of 3/4 C thank you... oh and coffee no sugar; just ff creamer.
For my snack I had an apple and 1 tbsp of PB.
Lunch was 1 C of chicken and broccoli with 1/2 c of white rice.  Sugar free iced tea.
I know that should have been it, but after running around all morning... it just didn't cut it for me and I really wanted a cookie, but I refrained... I held strong... I ate a soy/protein CB on a bun...DAMN!  Fat girl 1/ Skinny girl 0!!!  Then to top it off, when I came home I had whole grain cheese crackers... HELLLOOO!  Hey fattie; yeah you; put the crackers down and step away from the box!  Smooth move exlax... not a good food choice this afternoon...
So supper time I was invited to my Mom's for turkey... I was a good girl
4 oz of turkey, 1 c homemade mashed taters, 1/2 c. stuffing... good choices and what do I do???  I blow it all to hell by throwing my beautiful turkey on white bread... not one slice, but 2!!!  Idiot... your village awaits!
So I go home... calculate everything up and man was I pissed at me!!!

Tomorrow will be a helluva lot better... I'm having salad for lunch... and I'm taking clementines with me if I feel that rumbling in my tummy that demands to be fed... one way or another I will do better and that will put me 1 step closer to my 5% goal of 11.5 pounds lost by March 1st!  Now if I could just find my motivation to go get on the elliptical before bed... maybe I would feel better about those damn crackers...

***UPDATE***
I know this is no major feet by any means, but it is to me... 5:15 on the epliptical machine... I know that sounds small, but I'm starting out slow and working my way up.  200 steps.  It's 200 more than an hour ago, my heart is pumping, I broke out into a sweat for those glorious 5 :15 mins, it's a GOOD start!!!  YAY frickin' Me!