BON JOVI - UNDIVIDED (Offcial Video)

Summer is drawing to a close

and I have realized that I've barely posted anything on my blog.  *GASP!*  Guess it has something to do with a lack of making myself do it.  I could blame it on no time, but that would be a lie.  I've had time, just there's a lot I want to say on here, but I can't.  Never know who might be reading it.  Don't want to step on anyone's toes, or ruin anyone's day with my babbling...
  Let me see... summer vacation has brought me some wonderful times spent with my family and friends.  I've been to Wildwood to enjoy the water park, the boardwalk to watch my kids ride the rides, crabbing and learning to cook them, reconciliation with people I didn't think possible, a part time job to get me thru a paycheckless summer, to finish writing a second book and the start of a third, a couple deaths, a couple hospital trips, a few birthdays and a birthday phone call surprise from someone I never dreamed possible, several trips to the vet to make a sick doggie better, swimming in the pool, walking with my sister in law and above all time well spent with the people I love and care about! 
  As I look at this week of my last full week of summer vacation, I realize I have accomplished quite a bit this summer, and only have a little bit more to do.  I'm feeling rather good about myself!

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Ep. 33: Everything Is Broken - Preview

Another day... another something, something...

Pull me under
Run through my veins
To a place
Where I feel no pain
Be the pillow under my head
Cover me when I'm in your bed
Take ne higher than I've ever been
Take me down and back again
Come to me, be my disguise
Open your coat, let me crawl inside...

I just love these lyrics....

Oh... before I forget!!!

MAJOR accomplishment on my part! I went clothes shopping with some birthday money that my family was generous enough to dump on me and the most amazing thing happened at Wally World!  I tried on a pair of jeans and I have lost enough weight to get to shop back in the juniors section!!!  Just My Size may soon be a thing of my past that I shall NEVER return to... And I bought my first pair of lowrise jeans... My daughter said, man mom, you look good in them, lol!!!  Highlight of my day!!!

Nothing new... still crazy me!!!

Just trying to improve my outer shell by eating healthier, exercising a little more and taking care of me.  I've had so many things going on and I've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off!!!  I know this is short, but I have some things to do... toodles...

White Trash Beautiful

So I know no one follows this blog of mine because this is my therapy type of thing and I don't advertise, lol...well I feel that if you do stumble across my blog, you should know that there is a new clothing line coming out soon called, WHITE TRASH BEAUTIFUL!!!  It's a new clothing line by Nikki Lund and Richie Sambora of Bon Jovi.  www.wtbclothing.com is the soon to be launched website and @WTBeautiful and @1NIkkiLund are the twitter facts you need to keep up to date on everything.

  I do not know Nikki personally, but I've had the pleasure of "talking" to her via email and I have to say she is super cool, down to earth and really nice!  I asked her questions concerning the WTB line and what hopefully would be available in the near future, and she herself responded to my email personally, and was a real treat to "talk" to.  I believe customer service will be the BEST with this and I personally can't wait to check out the new music that she and Richie collaborated on together.  Not to mention the clothes as well.  So come one, come all... check out White Trash Beautiful! 

Here's a pic of my favorite dress from the line so far...

I also find it crazy ironic that what my daddy used to call me (white trash beautiful) when I was younger has now been turned into a hot clothing line...go figure...

Coolest Invention Ever?

A homemade fire pit!!!  This past weekend my husband finally gave into my plea for a fire pit and instead of spending stupid amounts of money on buying one, he decided to make me one out of curved patio bricks and mortar mix.  Can I say he is just so clever???  After it cured and we let it sit an additional day or two, we finally tested it out last night.  We roasted marshmallows and made smores and talked and had real conversation.  Not the two or three word texts that have become the normal family way of talking.  We had so much fun we did it again tonight... well most of us did anyways and we also roasted hot dogs along with the marshmallows.  I also got to burn 2 great big bags of paper that needed to be shredded as well!!!  I saved my shredder and made sure that copies of my old bills and bank statements will never be pieced back together, lol!!!  So now that most of my family is in bed, and the fire is out after 7 buckets of cold water... I am going to grab a shower and find my bed.

The Start of Summer Vacation...

So... last day of school was a little hectic... wait, let me back up to the Monday before the last day of school...everyone tells me how my life is so full of excitement and drama and how I should just write a book about the things that has happened to me and my family... well you know what?  As much as everyone else finds it so interesting; I fucking HATE it!!!!  Monday was a crazy day...just like all the others, lol... I went to work, was getting stuff ready for the big end of school and on my way home after picking up the kids... My cell rings, and I hear Bon Jovi's I'll Be There For You chorus, and I smile to myself until I realize that is my Mom's ringtone and she hardly ever calls my cell unless something is wrong!  So I answer it hopeful and she informs me she has been bitten by one of those growing kittens that were born in the wild behind her house and that have also been eating with a skunk!!!  GREAT!  So I go over there and sure enough, she had been bitten and its been like 20 years since her last tetanus shot, so I take her to the ER because both her doctor and my dad's tell her we don't do tetanus shots any longer, you have to go to the ER!  So off we go and there we sit for nearly 3 and half hours waiting for a damn tetanus shot!!!  She wanted to leave, threatened to leave and after being told by the nurse oh no, you can't the police have been called and you need to start rabies series unless you can catch this cat,  we stayed until they came back and administered the tetnaus shot and gave her antibiotics.  The guy nurse (can't remember his name to save my life) was TERRIFIC!!!  We LOVED him!!!  So off we go and I drop her off. 
  Tuesday rolls around and I call animal control to follow up on the report from the ER about the cat bite and see what they can do to find the cat... Officer Anthony asks me what report?  WHAT REPORT???  After sitting in the ER for over 3 hours, waiting because the police have been called and all that bullshit he informs me he was never notified???  WHAT????  So I proceed to tell him everything and he assures me he'll find out what's going on and give someone a good ass chewing!  LOVE ya officer Anthony!!!  So then the health department is notified about the bite case, they need the cat ASAP to test for rabies, so we begin our quest to catch it. 
  Wednesday animal control has no luck, so I go home dig out my ancient cat carrier and off to Mom's I go on a mission to prove that 1) I can catch a cat and 2) I don't need a degree or badge to accomplish this feat.  So we set up shop behind a neighbor's house that feeds the little bastards (there's 5 of them plus the mother and a skunk) and we wait... about 45 minutes after sunset, BINGO!  We get one... just not the one that bit her.  DAMN!  I spot the little furball but it takes off into the woods seeing that I want to catch it.  So we reset the carrier and I go home...
 Thursday... last day of school, have to serve breakfast to my little darlings, wish them well, clean up and leave by 10 after 10.  I go to my Mom's because today is the big "replace dad's pacemaker at Lady of Lourdes hospital" day!!!  I wish him well, take the cat we caught down to city hall and begin my wait for officer Anthony.  So while I wait I find out damn, I know more MPD then I realized.  Could come in handy, lol!!!  Caught up with a very old friend who used to buy me hot chocolate when he was a special cop and carried no gun at the high school football games!  It was a fun trip down memory lane.  So officer Anthony comes in (and I gotta say he was very easy on the eyes...CUTE) I hand over the cat, he gives me a REAL cat trap (after I sign a consent form of course) and I'm off to catch me another one to add to the bunch...I go check on my furry sister, Gabby and then head to Wa Wa for some lunch (courtesy of the PTA gift card they gave me; THANKS girls!) and I wait for school to end passing the time with Bonnie...I pick up the kids, we go back to check on Gabby and take her outside and home we go to get Jess ready for her sleepover.    This is the day that never ends mind you.  I have heard nothing about my dad's condition, I start to worry, texting to my siblings begins and then hubby comes home.  I make him dinner, go back to check on Gabby and take her out, feed her and then I set the cat trap because it will be getting dark soon and the neighbor informs me that the cat I want to catch eat everything out of the cat carrier earlier...I set the REAL cat trap, and go back to Mom's to sit for a spell and relax because my adrenaline is on 10 by now not knowing what's going on with dad!!!  Finally get a call, he's good, they are headed home, so I wait.
  Okay, they are home...Dad is weak and worriment starts.  Mom tells me about his surgery ordeal in what is supposed to be one of the BEST hospitals in Jersey...HA!  Not anymore as far as I'm concerned...rude, ignorant staff and what they did to him during surgery was atrocious!!!  They were only supposed to replace the battery to his pacemaker because it had been determined that he was far too weak to sustain a full blown surgery.  They gave him gas to numb him up, not knock him out... general anesthesia wasn't goign to be used.  He would be awake, but not supposed to feel anything...so they open him up and find out that the pacemaker is shot, needs to have the whole thing replaced.  Well the genius who was doing the gas gave him too much, so they couldn't give him general anesthesia because it would kill him.  Do you know what these morons did????  They covered his face with a fucking towel so he couldn't see what they were doing to him, but he sure felt it!!!  There wasn't any pain as far as the incision goes, but when they tried to remove the old pacemaker, he said it was embedded into tissue and they had to kinda of yank on it... well my dad thought they were going to yank his heart right out of his chest!!!  He was actually scared of that happening!!!  Can you imagine that poor man's blood pressure???  I felt so bad when he told me about it.  I hugged him and told him I loved him and he cried a little...that is one thing I'm sure he'll have nightmares about! 
  So back to the cat from Hades... after getting my dad settled into his hospital bed in his bedroom, (no easy feat let me tell you)I get ready to go and my mom's neighbor comes over and says, Vicki go get the cat trap, you got him!!!  I GOT HIM!!!  Hallelujah!!!  That made my night let me tell you!!!  So the next day, my Mom turns the cat over to officer Anthony who was kind enough to come to the house and pick it up and the trap and now we wait and see what happens with the quarantine..
  So we think the worst of it is over until the weekend hits and my dad takes a turn for the bad... he's swelling up, he's weak and *gasp* there is redness at the incision sight!  Needless to say, Sunday mid morning, he was rushed back to the hospital and they kept him because of the things I mentioned above.  Fluid in the lungs, feet and legs and a possible infection... let's hope that things get better...I think it's time for a family meeting because my mother is exhausted and she can't take care of him any more. 

So the next time you think, "Oh my life is sooo boring, I wish there was some excitement in it..." remember this... your excitement could be like mine and it's not the kind you'll want.  God, I hope this week is better...

So much for my good mood...

well I was in a good mood this morning... got up early, had my cup of coffee undisturbed, surfed the net and checked some email and then my darling daughter and her wonderful teenage mood emerged from her bedroom just a lovely ray of sunshine because I didn't wash enough of her clothes over the weekend!!! HELLO!!!  Do you have 2 hands?  Are they perfectly capable of washing clothes just as mine are???  I think the answer is a resounding YES!!!  Why is it the ones we bring life to, the ones that have us to thank for bringing them into this world, the ones we'd give our life for and most of our paycheck are the ones that just seem to enjoy screwing up our moods the most???  I don't get it... it seems as though she is not happy, unless I am unhappy and I don't understand the need for her to go out of her way to make me feel this way?!  Okay, simple solution... I am going to let this one go today and breathe, I am going to pretend this didn't happen for the sake of my sanity because the last few days/weeks have been enough to drive a preacher man to drink!

  Okay, done ranting... done whining... done!

Happy Memorial Day!!!

Had a whirlwind of a few days... Friday went to Jenn's and wrote our cover letter to send out to publishing houses in an attempt to find a publishing agent, Saturday I ran errands to get stuff ready for Sunday when we had our little BBQ and then went to the drive-in till 3:30 in the morning and today we finished off the BBQ stuff and had a few guests for a little while as the kids swam in the pool.  Phewww... I'm beat...

May is drawing to a close and...

  I don't think I made one post here during it...bad Vicki, bad!!

 Well here I sit taking a majorly deserved break after accomplishing a little bit today.  I went back to my writing class and had so much fun today it wasn't funny, I mowed the grass so my dog can use the potty without being violated by crab grass and I vacuumed the pool so it looks pretty :)  All and all, it was a good day.  I also caught up with a friend that I haven't had the chance to speak with because ya know, life doesn't stop just because things are crazy, lol.

  Speaking of crazy... no I wasn't referring to myself...yet... I'm not sure when things are ever going to slow down...my pop was released from the hospital last Monday after basically dying in his sleep and having his pacemaker bring him back so he had to spend some quality time getting the crap stuck out of him at the hospital so they could give him medicine thru an IV.  After his release, he's managed to have 2 more episodes that his heart stopped and his pacemaker shocked him back, but he refuses to go back tot he hospital this time...*SIGH*  Just another day in paradise, lol... I try not to get worked up anymore because he always bounces back...

  Work has been super busy, but it looks like they are not going to privatize this year; maybe next June?  I'm just happy to still have a job.  Hopefully they will keep us long enough to pay my truck off or until I can get published and make some money that way.

  Oh and here is some pics...                  me and daddy

and me and mommy ...

and just me...here goes..

 hopefully the next ones I take will actually SHOW the 18 pounds I have worked hard at losing...

Crossroads...

Today is one of those days where you look at yourself in the mirror and say stay strong; you will get over this hump in your life.  It has nothing to do with my personal stuff like family or husband or even kids...it's the dreaded old issue of weight.   It's no secret that I have been on a diet for 2 plus months...following the same strict routine forever of special K for breakfast, salad with protein for lunch and a sensible dinner of one helping of what I made on my plate... sounds simple right?  Well then there's the part of no carbonated beverages not even diet of any kind, no eating after 7 o'clock and my favorite no snacks unless you are willing to give up half of your dinner plate in exchange...I know, it's sounds tough; it is!!!  I have been following this religiously up until this past week because I wasn't losing any more weight than my original 13 pounds.  Plateau I know...I HATE them, but let me tell you I can't give up much more than I already have food wise or I'd be eating nothing and listening to grumbling otherwise known as my stomach while it cramps up on me along with my legs...I drink OJ with my breakfast to stop the leg cramping, but it does nothing for the shakes I get; shakes so bad that my whole insides quiver along with my hands...what's a fat girl to do?  If you say exercise... HA; already do that...I walk 2 miles on my treadmill every other night to the sounds of Bon Jovi telling me We Got It Going On, Keep The Faith, We Weren't Born To Follow and so on...hell I even listen to Riahanna tell me please don't stop the music and *gasp* Brittany Spears pushing me to be stronger than yesterday...I sweat so bad I have to take a shower because I look like I just stepped out of one with my workout clothes on!!! 
  So back to my crossroads troubles I mentioned?  Well I haven't lost anymore weight since my 13 pounds and my clothes are at a crossroads with my body...You know where your fat clothes make you look dumpy because they are hanging off you, but you haven't lost enough weight yet to get your fat ass back into the smaller sized jeans you have stuffed in your dresser???  You know the ones that if you lost that 10 more pounds they would look good on you and not like you're trying to stuff 10 pounds of shit into a 5 pound bag???  This is why women get discouraged and fall off the frickin' wagon!!!  What do I have to do to get my metabolism to cooperate with me?  Hire a personal trainer?  Well hell, if I could afford that, I'd have the fat sucked out of my ass don'tcha think?  I am so tired of depriving myself of everything only for it to be for nothing...Yes, I know lifestyle change, blah, blah, f*cking blah!  I have changed my lifestyle!  I rarely eat fried foods opting for baked, I cut out as much sugar as i possibly can from my diet suffering through cramps and bloating of that fake sugar shit, I eat so much vege's it's no wonder my skin hasn't turned frickin' green!!!  I just don't get why some women can stuff anything into their mouth and not gain an ounce, but me?  If I so much as THINK about eating chocolate cake or a scoop of ice cream I gain 5 pounds!!!  Both of my brother's took after my mother and are trim and never had a weight problem... who did I take after??? Dear ole dad who isn't!

I want to love my body and feel good about myself, but today is just not that day!  *SIGH*

Feeling Kinda Blah...

Tonight.  Don't know why... just am...I walked on the treadmill, but the adrenaline rush is already gone for walking 2 miles at 2 minutes less than before (44.10 to 42.00 flat...)... I don't know; hope I'm not getting sick; maybe I just need a good night's sleep.  Was pretty bummed to find out that my brother's 11 year sober streak ended 4/9 on his 48th birthday.  I know I should let it go, but I some how feel like Superman isn't real anymore; I can see the wire he was flying from and it's a MAJOR mood killer *sigh*

Tomorrow will be better after some sleep.  I have to be in a better mood; it's one of my friends birthdays, lol... I'm praying for sunshine for them...

Well off to pick the man boy up from work and then perhaps  I will find my bed and get some shuteye...

I never posted about...

my Bon Jovi show in Philly on March 24th because well I was flying so high after it that I didn't feel like it, LOL!!!  Let me start by saying Jennifer you are the WOMAN!!!  I have to say she is the ONLY reason I got to go.  She surprised me with tickets to the show about 10 days before it and when we got to the arena and saw where our seats were, OH MY GOD!!!  4 rows from the stage on Richie's side and I thought I would hyperventilate from happiness!!!!  The man was literally 20-25 feet from me for almost 3 hours!!!  They opened with a new song from The Circle called Happy Now and went into another new song called We Weren't Born To Follow...Instead of typing up a setlist, allow me to just put this thing here...

The show was absolutely one of the BEST nights of my life.  I met some really wonderful people that night who were both kind, generous and some of the nicest people I will ever have the pleasure of meeting.  The band played and sang their hearts out like I have never seen before and this was my 5th opportunity to see them live since 1989.  The music, the banter between songs, the atmosphere was like nothing I have ever experienced before and it definitely will be a night I will NEVER forget!!!                                            

Saturday Ramblings...

Had a busy day today after waking up late... took my man boy to work, visited a friend and showed her my pix I took at my Bon Jovi show, watched some TV with the family, answered some emails...  I still have bookoo laundry to complete yet before Monday, but I'll get to it tomorrow I'm sure.  My work uniforms are done at least.  MUST walk on the treadmill tonight...I hear it calling my name!

I have come to the conclusion...

that diets SUCK!!!

  But I have to admit when I follow this one, it works.  Now off to the treadmill to further the progress of eliminating this rear bumper of mine...

Today was a good day...

the sun was shining, the kids didn't fight that much, I got to write a little and it made sense, my daughter CLEANED MY HOUSE!!!  Yeah, today was a GOOD day!  More later...

Is my luck finally changing???

That seems to be the question of the day?  I was just a reading something to my cousin over the phone and all of a sudden my cell phone goes off in the kitchen.  So I finish my sentence and said, hold on a sec, I gotta text message... oh wait I have 2 text messages... my cousin laughs and I pisk up my phone and say damn I am still figuring out how to use this new cell phone... so i finally get my text message thingy opened and lo and behold it's a text message from Bon Jovi... WHAT?  WAIT?  BON JOVI???  Oh yeah, I signed up for text alerts when something BIG is goign to happen in the land of all things Jovi related... so I was like wonder what's going on???  My cousin laughs at me and then hears me exclaim HOLY SHIT!!!  She's like what?  WHAT?  I'm like oh my God, no way!  She's like oh my God, no way what?  I'm like...Oh my God, I just won a signed copy of THE CIRCLE by Bon Jovi!!!  She's like no way, get out of here!  I'm like yes way!  I was so excited!!!  EXCITED people!  I don't own a single thing of Bon Jovi that is signed and I have been a fan since 1985!!!  So I try and figure out how I won this and then I see thebottom of the text it's for retweeting about wanting Bon Jovi tickets...  so you know what?  I am not even bummed that I didn't win the tickets because this is something I can add to my collection that I didn't have to pay for, I didn't have to buy off of someone who was looking to make a buck on my favorite band's signatures and best of all it came from them!!!  So THANK YOU BON JOVI; you made this fan a really HAPPY campa!!!

Monday, Monday

got the post Easter blues...  I was a good girl.  I had 3 pieces of candy and walked away.  I guess I could've been better and not had any, but where is the fun in that???  Tonight me and the treadmill have a hot date.  My goal for this evening is going to be 2 miles.  I need to lose another 10 pounds before May; my ultimate goal is 55 more pounds, but I am taking baby steps this time and not setting myself up for failure.  I have been sucessful and have lost 13 pounds...it's been tough.  I gave up goodies for 6 weeks!!!  So Easter came and I had a little bit of indulgence and now I am back to normal tomorrow with special K for breakfast w/OJ, lunch a nice chef salad w/ balsmic dressing and then my very sensible dinner of meat starch and vege w/1 slice of wheat bread.  I am committed to getting rid of this unhealthy excess.

Today I managed to get the game room cleaned up and all the crap lying around put away or thrown away...goodbye old dryer, so long corner TV stand that I bought the day of my Bon Jovi concert in 2001, adios old dresser and microwave cart, see ya miscellaneous junk that I kept for God knows why...it was a pleasure...My BIG project tonight is to get all my clean laundry folded and put away so I can tackle MORE dirty laundry tomorrow...doesn't my life sound exciting???

I also have pretty tulips to plant that were Easter presents from my kids.  Sometimes they do surprise me with random acts of kindness and thoughtfulness...makes me swell with pride, lol...

That's all for now; tune in later or perhaps tomorrow for more exciting random acts of blabbering from yours truly, lmao...

Happy Easter (once more with feeling...)

Just wishing everyone a safe, healthy and happy Easter... got a special visit from my big bro on the Harley, another special visit from a dear old friend and her family... life is good.  I am truly blessed!  Now off to another very dear friends place to wreak some havoc in the world of writing...

Writing Bug

I think it has once again bitten me... I need to work on raging darkness, but I'm slumming with some fantasy type stuff right now to lift my spirits after the yay it's just jeans comment...

Doing a little happy dance with tears

so I pulled out a pair of jeans that I bought like 6 weeks ago to wear to a concert that didn't fit me because I have lost like 13 pounds in 6 weeks...well when I bought them I couldn't get them past my fat ass and I had to wear something else to the show; well low and behold tonight I not only got them up over my fat ass, I got them buttoned and zippered too and I didn't have to pull the old 80's trick of laying on the bed either, lol!!!  I was so proud of me that I sauntered out into the living room to show off the fact hey husband of mine, look and needless to say I didn't get the reaction I was hoping for.  Yay what you have jeans on...woooo whoooo... how come men only notice things when they want something???

Updated My Background

I am really liking this new blogger templates... wish I knew how to use them better, but with a little help from photoshop I think I made it look pretty...

So maybe I need to start using this thing...

Okay it's been like... oh forget it... it's been a long time... not to sound like an old Boston song...damn where do I begin??? 

  Well let's start from the last post...Last time I posted I was contemplating a MAJOR life desicion and guess what??? I followed thru with it!!!  I left home in October and thanks goes out to the good Lord above and all my family and friends for helping me to get thru it, work it out and move back home so my family could start the much needed healing process.  Let's face it; my marriage was crumbling all around me and I didn't know what to do...but like I said, with the help of my family and friends and keeping my faith; things have turned back around and I truly believe in the right direction.

  I gave up my myspace which was causing me headaches in more ways than one; I put the freeze on facebook.  The only time I go on there is to see what's going on with Bon Jovi when they post a new thing for me to read.  You think it's sad???  Well I don't.

  Bon Jovi is and shall always will be my absolute favorite band!!!  They have picked me up when I was down, helped me dust myself off and got me to stick to my guns and keep the faith.  They have supplied the soundtrack of my life and I will be forever grateful to them.  Richie Sambora may not be the flashiest guitar player on the face of the Earth, make Rolling Stones top 100 guitarists of all time or even have the techniques of Eddie Van Halen or Joe Satriani, but that man's playing MOVES me like no other guitar player can!!!  When he bends a note, you feel his emotion bleeding thru it, when he strums those strings you feel his pain, his happiness, his drive...His songwriting makes you feel his passion for life and I couldn't imagine anyone other than himself or Jon Bon Jovi singing it...

  Okay, done rambling about the beauty of Bon Jovi...although I am still PISSED AS HELL that the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame has snubbed them yet again!!!  Should be called rock and roll hall of shame...Bon Jovi deserve to be in there!!!  Okay, really done now...

  So now that my life has settled down (some what) my goals are to try and get a few books published that me and my sister from another mother have worked together on and maybe make some dough doing what I love doing...WRITING!!!, enjoying my family and keeping my head above water for the time being...

  Promise to update more often, but I'm gonna get moving for now... I need to catch Survivor ondemand with my family...PEACE!!!